When the Mood Strikes
sometimes the mood strikes me to write and let it flow. mom is not doing so well. her chemo is starting to rage through her body and pain and discomfort are becoming more of the norm than not. that is hard to be witness to. i see my parents entering into a different chapter in their lives. one in which they are bound to each other to give care and nurture. my dad gets up with my mom when she cries from the pain and presses her head or puts on new age music on to relax her. it worked the other night. she fell asleep.
i’m not sure how to help my dad though. when i go home, he doesn’t really take a break, though i want him to. i want him to get in the car and drive to the beach and just hang, but he’s not that type. he likes staying at home and watching the indian channels on tv and translating all the tamil movies to my friend bula - she’s assamese.
times like these show you how important family is - chosen or genetic. it also shows me how immediately your life can be put into a tailspin or on temporary hold, depending on how you look at it. time seems suspended in the air right now. it feels like the longest 5 months ahead of us. chemo, radiation.
there are some good things happening too though. many blessings coming down the road. mom will be cancer free. that will be the biggest gift.
Your Mother, your Father, you and your family are in my thoughts during this rough time. Being there is the biggest comfort to both your parents. Your presence gives your father strength…for you are a product of your Mother. So just continue to do your best. Your whole family is in my prayers.
Shanu
I am so very sorry to hear of your mother’s battle. I am amazed at how tired of a word one can get. It surrounds us all, everywhere we turn. However,the “battle” is winnable. You and your family’s’ strength will make it happen. Your parents are such lovely people and you all are in my prayers. You can recognize that there are good things happening as well and that is a good sign, you must keep those in your sights all of the time. You can only deal with what you have in front of you right now. You can not look ahead in fear, as you do not know for sure what is there; you only know what you have to deal with right now. I miss you and once again apologize for falling off the planet.
Love and peace to you and yours, John